Munirah Meerasa

Okay im such a bad person. February is almost end and i have not yet post for last month article. Okay so huh. What am i gonna talk about? February came and go without i even realized it. My firend who name i not intend to mention here has continue on her degree. And me?! Hahahahahahhh huu not yet. Im planning to quit job by the end of march. So trying to make quality time as much as posibble. What else? I been going crazy with cosway lately and spend almost 100 everytime i go there. February is the month where i got hurt alot. Knowing tue true freakys and flaw. Friends and foe alike. So it been a huge no massive for me. I learn something at least. I learn that we could laugh and at the same time being fake. Oh oh oh. One thing i would like to share. If a person could talk trash about others in front of us they could also talk trash about us behind our back. Okay enough rambling i gonna get something to eat before i fall asleep and wake up like 4 hours later.   Peace yoo ...

Saat nie itu yang ad dlm fikiran aq. Bkan aq x boleh bt. Aq boleh angkut baju brang aq blah tengah malam. Aq boleh bt. Aq bukan budak kecik. Tapi aq tau lari bukan jalan penyelesaian. Benda nie takkan selesaikan apa2. Aq cuma harap yang orng boleh faham aq. Bagi aq ruang. Dan bukan paksa aq ikat kehendak depa. Ya depa mak bapak. Orang yg patutnya lebih memahami. Tapi kenapa depa yg bt aq rasa menderita. I was right all along coming back here was a mistake. I shouldnt have return. I crave for happiness but misery always trail behind me. I dont really knows what love is. Or happy. Yeah they are big tree, strong that hard to manuver. And i always the victim to their ego.

Yup truth to be told. What i thought is real. Wow. Gaji dia ja naik sorang2 gaji aq dk takat tu daa. Lpas tuh bohong pulak okay. Bla aq rant dlm malay kuar lah bahasa yg tak sedap dengar. So let me talk in english. My instinc proved to be true. How can they hide it from me. God i cant even believe it. I dont have any word to even describe my feelings right now. The feeling of betrayal is solid.

I have feeling. A bad one. Well i was doing few hours of over time working but turns out that my salary is not increasing. I thought that maybe they didnt count the hours. Them today one of the colleges ask how much do i get this month. And she ask either my friend salary is higher than me. Well as far as i know. We got about the same amount. But she said that my friend salary is higher than me. Then it click. What if the hours of me working overtime is counted and being put under someone else paycheck. I didnt get any payslip so that maybe right. I always got this kind of hunch. And it always turn up to be true. What if it is true? As i always said you cannot trust anyone except yourself. # "real power didnt come from hate, but from truth" Yours trully miszmyrisz 😎

I once had a dream that still haunted me to this day. I had several phobia. one of them is phobia with insect. bugs scared the shit out of me. I went into a room all of a sudden there a thousand could be a million of bugs come swarming around me. I freak out and ran as chased by devil. but I fell on my knees and then....       a man come and ..... hugged me from behind protected me as I shivers from fear. I don't really realize it until I recover. and he just give one more comforting hug and leave even before I could even sees his faces. What really caught my bonnet is that the feeling is so real. So vivid. As if there is someone that really hug me that time. I could remind about it and still could feel his presence.

I keep seen this vision of me walking home to my parents house. I sees myself pregnant. as alone wife with no husband. it sitr me a little. because I used to had vision about someone told me that I would involve in the whole spirit stuff. and it turns out to be true. most of the things I feel is either come from dream. continuously dream about it. and more scaring me is that sometime I felt like someone talk to me. telling something is going to happen. this happen just few day before my brother dies. I heard voice  telling me I would end up losing someone important. to be exact my roomate got call saying her father on death bed. it strike me at the very moment. I heard it clear. not like instinc. or a hunch or whatever. it more like whispering. saying "you too will end up like that". then three day later I got call from my parents telling me my brother had incident and died. I usually have a very high instinct about thing. and it always end up to be true. but I always go ...

Hellow fellows reader Okay scrach that im the only one who are going to be here but annyways. Im plannig to make this a habit. where i going to make an update every month about my life so far. So this month as we getting into second week of the month of a new year and i dont think its too late to say happy new year. Yeay yeahe. Owhkay who am i kidding. This new year means noting but a very busy life for me. I havent being this busy scince i taking my diploma. God its awful i will leave home early and come back late. And my boss is being bossy, oh well that natural. New year means one thing. One more digit add to our age, im turning 22 this year. Age is a big deal for me. Feeling of getting old. And suppose to achive many thing in life already. But me still searching for it. I have an issue wich not a big deal for me. But this time its about the two face people and the hypocrite one i dont want to talk about it so much. It only hurt me by doing so. I just remembers one things. T...