Munirah Meerasa

Masuk tahun baru nie aq ada benda yang nak diluahkan. Dah setahun dah aq x jmpa dia. Facebook memories decided to open up an old wound by remind me of thing that ive been struggling to forget. Klau dulu aq blek dari asrama. Mesti curi masa gak p jmpa dia. Sembang sat pn jadi laa. Masa aq duk kl pn blek sebulan skali cari jlan nk jmpa. Sbb bagi aq she was a long term friend that i hoped to be forever. Well nothing ever last for ever. To be fair. She did thought me much. 1. Nothing last forever. 2. Everyone would leave us in the end. 3. There is something called trust and guts instinct 4. Believe in my self more. 5. Never pour so much without hold back on anyone. 6. Once they break ur trust. Walk away. If you want to give chance fine. But know limit and be catious. 7. Give space to your self so that you could see what really going on. Maannn the list could go on. I never been in love relationship before. But ill say that friendship break up is harder to move on. I love and ca...

Assalamualaikum Hai awesome people. So klau dh biasa kt snie maybe you get a little  glimps of how i am actually.  To tell the truth.  I not what i am today.  Five years ago i cant even look into the miror.  I am my worse critic.  Not critic like be ..... But more to critic that soul crushing. I may suffer from self hate. I am horrible at studies.  I dont have many friends growing up.  My one long term friend ever, stab me at the back.  Never been in a relationship ever.  Yes never.  I would sit in a group talk loud and laugh.  But then i change.  Its like a flick of switch i turn distant.  Feels like people around me were forced to sit with me.  They hate me.  Wish me were gone.  Were happier if i weren't there.  I try not to think that much often.  But maybe that why i get the negative vibes often and its like being in water.  Dont know when you going to drown in the endless darknes...

I am temperal blame it to my anger I am playfull blame it to my youth I am impatient blame it to my ego I am reserved blame it to my innocence I am ignorance blame it to lack of confidence I am vain blame it to my insensetivity I am too matured blame it to the how fast i force myself growing up I know it all blame the kid that once stupid and hate being herself I dont care blame it to the all crumpled feelings that i once try to reach someone before. I care too much blame it to the time i was left to deal with my feeling alone. I am distant blame it to this closed heart. I am me blame it to the way i am.  It easy to talk and laugh with me. But i afraid its not that easy to came into my life wheares into my heart. It may be hard.  But not imposible.  😊

Haa exclusive di chocolate marchmellow. Benda yang ramai x tau pasal aku munirah meerasa. Benda nie mungkin kawan rapat dengan aku pun x perasan and mungkin family aku sendiri pun x perasan. So klau nak tau. ( xmau tau pun x pa. Tolong click back or button merah tuh ) teruskan baca. Okay. 😉 1. Im am naive. Boleh kata macam pembaris lah lurus aq nie. Hampa bt muka serius skit cakap compem aq percaya. Hahahh. Sebab tuh kalau orang cakap dia suka aki aku x percaya. Susah nak percaya. 2. Buta arah. I get lost just like that. If i go anywhere on my own i get lost in like seconds. I get to the second floor to find the toilet and then forgot which was the door to get downstairs are. Never ask my help for direction. I get into the building and lost the direction at the outside. 3. Forgetfull. If i meet you there is about 10%  would remember your face. And about...let me see. Erm 0% i would remember your name. 4. Sunyi adalah benda yang aku paling x suka. Bukan sunyi yang x da...