I was about to say something cool about ADHD. And thing ive been struggle my whole life. But i guess staring at this screen with a table full of friends a sign that it is a total big ass NO.
aku rasa mati. yang aku rasa bila aku ingat rumah tak ada guna. tak rasa nak duduk rumah. aku nak lari. jauh jauh pergi. tapi aku bukan sendiri. aku pernah rasa ingin mati. tapi aku padamkan bila ku bayang wajah dia. sekarang aku rasa hati ku mati. disebabkan orang yang sama. segalanya aku dahulukan mereka tapi mereka kini dahulukan diri sendiri aku hanya sekadar diperlukan selagi ada guna. untuk mereka kelihatan malaikat aku yang menjadikan sikap, sabar, kasih sayang mereka sebagai idola. kini merasa semuanya tidak berguna. apa perlu lagi usaha. buang segalanya pergi segalanya aku malu aku rasa mati.
Kadang kita nak put blame kt orang yg kita tak suka or kita jadikan dia kambing hitam. then kita berjaya get rid of him/her. then what happen? dia dh x da. we manage to destroy them. after that. who will take the blow that normally give to him/her. who would be the fall guy for us after that?
How are you? how is she? good for you walking into my life like a mistakes take one look and i knew. good for you taunting me like a joke left me in pique every time just to get my attention riding after me all the way home good for you I was the one who hated you first Those long late night calls putting me up in a pedestal only to come crashing down the next morning every time the whole room could hear us the whole building knows about us and yet you never call it for what it was and good for her sitting back there turning her cheeks good for you so carefree so detached good for you treating me like your own good for you making me feel like I'm yours when you already have her good for you do you sleep well? how your baby is he healthy? good for you for breaking her heart good for you for breaking mine good for you she picked up the pieces left me picking up my own good for you for making me feels stupid all I felt was shame good for you I bel...
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