Good for you

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How are you?

how is she?


good for you 

walking into my life like a mistakes

take one look and i knew.

 

good for you 

taunting me like a joke

left me in pique every time

just to get my attention

riding after me all the way home

good for you 

I was the one who hated you first


Those long late night calls

putting me up in a pedestal 

only to come crashing down the next morning

every time

the whole room could hear us

the whole building knows about us

and yet you never call it for what it was

and good for her sitting back there turning her cheeks


good for you so carefree so detached

good for you treating me like your own

good for you making me feel like I'm yours 

when you already have her


good for you

do you sleep well?

how your baby is he healthy?

good for you for breaking her heart

good for you for breaking mine 

good for you she picked up the pieces

left me picking up my own

good for you for making me feels stupid

all I felt was shame

good for you I believed you

good for you she love you.


Good for you

going around telling people I'm the crazy one

how we were, the things we do, talk, fight

you didn't expect that to reach me didn't you....I know


Good for you for walk away scars free

good for you I overlook him over you

good for you I'm left all alone.

good for you for that impromptu meeting my parents 

good for you I paved the way in

making excuses for your conceited self.

I'm sitting there watching you contempt 

I was ready to fight for it, for us

….there was never us


Good for you it takes everything in me to forget you

good for you after all this time a part of me died that day

good for you talking to my friends like you did nothing wrong

good for you the others look at me with solicitude 


Was it hurt when I left without a trace

did it anger you, screaming at my confidant 

saying you can always find me, defiantly

"She can never run away from me".

Did I hurt your pride Mr. casually cruel?


Good for you I'm now numb

good for you I was in a new hell


Good for you coming back after all this years 

like we were some old friend catching up

good for me I am good at goodbye 

good for me I am good at burning the bridges and disappear  

good for me you wasn't worth my time

good for me I had learn it through the worst way.


Good for me now I am okay. 

…not perfect but okay.

I have been through the worst, I can survive you. 

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