Running in circles.
I can be a very good listener. anything you want to confide to be, ill be your sponge and listen to you. and after you finished you can go on about your day and not worry about your secrets and your trouble. i wont tell a soul. i have been like that for many years.
But my biggest weakness is that i am a terrible at helping with trouble people. i don't know how to talk to people to make them spit out their trouble. that i don't have skill for that. If you want to talk to me, i'll be there. but if you are reluctant to share or need encouragement i..... i can't.
At the end of the day i'm not an open person. not on private matter but also things that are very small and unimportant. i have this wall that i start to build up from ever since i can remember. So to do it with others, i don't know how to.
My best friend right now just lost his brother. his dear brother. i cant bring myself to talk to her even i want to know her feeling how she is so badly. I overthink everything,
what do i say?
do i ask up front?
what would her reaction be?
do i beat around the bush?
what if she don't understand me?
what if she get the wrong idea?
how would she take it?
what if i offended her?
do i comfort her?
how to make her feel better?
how can i help?
am i even helping her situation?
do i make it worse?
what do i do?
how i go about it?
all of this making me go crazy running in circles.
chasing my own thought, my own demon
But i would still try my best to not make it about me. Its about her. She has been there for me when i need someone either i admit it or not.
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