Munirah Meerasa

Why? When a guy persue you. Youre left with thousand if not million question. You're left torn either to accept it or not. what if he loses his interest once you were together. What if you end up hate him. What if he end up dislike you for your bad habit. What if he find some one better. What if at the end he left you when you already falling for him. What if after accepting him things turn. What if i make bad choices. What if i realized then that i dont want it. What if i then found someone better. What it he was not for me. The future posibility of heart break just slowly crushing my soul. What i afraid the most is not "to love someone. Is to letting someone love me." In fact i dont think i know what love is. What if i all just in your head. Writting this i realized that i need help.

Masuk tahun baru nie aq ada benda yang nak diluahkan. Dah setahun dah aq x jmpa dia. Facebook memories decided to open up an old wound by remind me of thing that ive been struggling to forget. Klau dulu aq blek dari asrama. Mesti curi masa gak p jmpa dia. Sembang sat pn jadi laa. Masa aq duk kl pn blek sebulan skali cari jlan nk jmpa. Sbb bagi aq she was a long term friend that i hoped to be forever. Well nothing ever last for ever. To be fair. She did thought me much. 1. Nothing last forever. 2. Everyone would leave us in the end. 3. There is something called trust and guts instinct 4. Believe in my self more. 5. Never pour so much without hold back on anyone. 6. Once they break ur trust. Walk away. If you want to give chance fine. But know limit and be catious. 7. Give space to your self so that you could see what really going on. Maannn the list could go on. I never been in love relationship before. But ill say that friendship break up is harder to move on. I love and ca