star struck

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i literally had to put this one up this instant.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!

okay i will try to control the freakishness.

so today is was out with my mom and a friend of her to the lawyers office to settle somethings and on the way back home we fetch my sister at he college. is was to early to eat lunch and already to late for breakfast but my mom drive through the little food court we have in the place near my house.

my crush i would say. his father own a stall at the food court. when my mom say we are going to eat i dont really know where she would go.

i just listening to the song from my phone suddently my heart give out hints. in my head i can see the situation where i saw my crush and i was like mentally slap my self for having that thought. well it nott like he going to be there right.

but i was wrong. as soon our car get near my eyes cought something. well should  say my radar activated? okay. and from few seconds and just a glimpse i could see him sitting at the conner and were eating. he was there. get it. i mean i wasnt really expect he would be there.

my mom park the car near that place. i held my head. with the thought i going crazy.
i walk in and trying to make sure it really him. and oh my gaddd it is true...

we take seat quite far from where he was. and i daringly walk in front of him. and i could see from the corner of my eyes that he also saw me. okay now the sitting arangement. i sat opposite to him. i was facing him and i just steal look at him. even my face and the way i act seem normal and cool. but my head i couldn think. it worse that ever. i even stuttered when odering the food.

i keep looking at him but not for long as he also keep looking every where and i could sense that he notice me looking at him. but my face was priceless. you should have seen it. i act like i dont know him and keep acting like there nothing happen when he look at me. and i could say that i satisfied this time. becouse not just me who notice him but he also look at me few time.

well i couldnt say that he recognise me after all these years. as i change a lot compare to 6 years ago.
my face the way i dress my self and also my height are change but to me i just take few second just a glimpse of him and i could tell it was him.

funny right. i say that i already forget about him but to my suprised the universe keep telling me that im wrong. we meet again. i keep on the space. but still i 'bump' into him.

is this really a coincidence?
or....nahh no way. pfffft.

well either i like it or not. my heart still proves that how i feel about him never change. my heart thumping like crazy in my chest. i could even heard it my self. and i was wondering if it will jumps out from my body. gosh its unreal. how you could meet the person after years without talking to them and still fall for him over and over again.

it wearing me down. but still now my head are over the moon. i was star stuck. i get heart attack.
he is unreal. truly lucky for him. but for me. a never ending curse.

btw i got to go now. still the effect is on me. i can't stop smiling. such a dangerous virus he is.
Location: pulau pinang, Malaysia

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